Monday, August 16, 2010
My one wish
My one wish is to see the stars,
No more darkless, harshlit nights-
Blotted out by blindman's ink
If you didn't need me
you're standing there
with the look in your eyes
you, between me
and suicide
if you didn't need me
I don't think
I would need myself.
with the look in your eyes
you, between me
and suicide
if you didn't need me
I don't think
I would need myself.
Monday, July 26, 2010
Pretty, white you.
You’re powder in my blood,
pretty, white powder.
But I’m riding you out
like horses,
pretty, white horses.
The shakes. Shhh.
The pretty, white flakes
of you
still falling.
I’m still falling.
“You’re on drugs”
they say.
If only they knew,
All that’s inside me
is pretty, white you.
But all that was pretty,
is pretty no more.
I’ll ride you out, pretty,
undress
and withdraw.
pretty, white powder.
But I’m riding you out
like horses,
pretty, white horses.
The shakes. Shhh.
The pretty, white flakes
of you
still falling.
I’m still falling.
“You’re on drugs”
they say.
If only they knew,
All that’s inside me
is pretty, white you.
But all that was pretty,
is pretty no more.
I’ll ride you out, pretty,
undress
and withdraw.
Friday, July 2, 2010
Untitled (Unintelligible Outcast Poem)
They cast me up,
A soulless thing
They called me creep
And liar liar
I cut my rings
Of baby hair
To hunt them down
Beware beware
See? They said
There’s nothing there
Your scabby soul
Threadbare, threadbare
And slow it dawned
Like thickest night
That maybe they
Were right right.
A soulless thing
They called me creep
And liar liar
I cut my rings
Of baby hair
To hunt them down
Beware beware
See? They said
There’s nothing there
Your scabby soul
Threadbare, threadbare
And slow it dawned
Like thickest night
That maybe they
Were right right.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
The hummingbird of panic
There’s a hummingbird in your chest,
in that aching cage of bone.
You hold it there too tightly
to hush its maddened drone.
And when you wake each morning,
again, you trap it still.
It’s harder, harder every day
to clench the growing thrill
of panic, at seeing the world
all clean-pressed and aglow.
You tremble as you wonder
if someone might just know
what dreams you had last night
as you starved for blessed rest
that never came, as hummingbird screams
tore through your prison chest.
If only you could crush its wings
to feathers and debris.
Or better yet, have mercy
and set the mad thing free.
But our poor, dear hummingbird,
must stay forever in its cage.
So you wash the nightmares from your skin
and claw your way onstage.
in that aching cage of bone.
You hold it there too tightly
to hush its maddened drone.
And when you wake each morning,
again, you trap it still.
It’s harder, harder every day
to clench the growing thrill
of panic, at seeing the world
all clean-pressed and aglow.
You tremble as you wonder
if someone might just know
what dreams you had last night
as you starved for blessed rest
that never came, as hummingbird screams
tore through your prison chest.
If only you could crush its wings
to feathers and debris.
Or better yet, have mercy
and set the mad thing free.
But our poor, dear hummingbird,
must stay forever in its cage.
So you wash the nightmares from your skin
and claw your way onstage.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
please.
i read the books
you gave me.
i’m so desperate
to keep you here
beside my bed.
i listen to all the songs
you sung to me.
i torture meaning
from every word.
i find no meaning
in this distance.
this senseless, senseless
space.
please please please
come back.
i tried eating again,
but a spoonful of sugar
can’t mask this bitter
senseless distance.
find me, please
before I find myself
whimpering, pathetic.
and throw it from the cliff.
like rags. like nothing.
like senseless senseless
distance.
you gave me.
i’m so desperate
to keep you here
beside my bed.
i listen to all the songs
you sung to me.
i torture meaning
from every word.
i find no meaning
in this distance.
this senseless, senseless
space.
please please please
come back.
i tried eating again,
but a spoonful of sugar
can’t mask this bitter
senseless distance.
find me, please
before I find myself
whimpering, pathetic.
and throw it from the cliff.
like rags. like nothing.
like senseless senseless
distance.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
They chant...
They chant
God Save Us
Their voices swooping
Like maddened birds
Still still still
A cleared forest
Of stumps stumps stumps.
Your will not mine,
As the waves crash
Against the walls.
to scream murder
My voice ravaged,
Crucified, silenced.
Save yourselves
You poor, stupid,
nothing congregation.
God Save Us
Their voices swooping
Like maddened birds
Still still still
A cleared forest
Of stumps stumps stumps.
Your will not mine,
As the waves crash
Against the walls.
I want
to scream murder
My voice ravaged,
Crucified, silenced.
Save yourselves
You poor, stupid,
nothing congregation.
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